|I only bought a helmet so I can
do my own Harlem Shake videos…
I am stupid excited, yo. Stupid with excitement. Excitedly stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. Excited excited excited. I’m not able to think of any other thing but tomorrow: the day I do my Compulsory Basic Training. I feel like a kid before Christmas.
Perhaps I could equate it to the moments leading up to the first time I had sex. But, no. That’s just a creepy-weird analogy; if I had to choose between motorcycles and boobs, I would choose the latter every time. I’m pretty sure there’s a “dual overhead cam” joke in there somewhere, but I can’t quite think of the wording.
Not too long ago, Sash suggested I “live as though the money is coming,” (1) but I just can’t abide such purchases. The training school provides all the gear one needs, save boots, and it is simple economic good sense not to buy loads of brand new stuff before I’ve even had a chance to say for certain biking is for me.
True, I bought a helmet. And certainly part of the reason for such a purchase was an effort to will this whole motorcycle thing to happen. But also there is the simple fact that British men have a vastly different interpretation of hygiene than I do, and I don’t like the idea of spending a full day with some other bloke’s hair and face grease rubbing into my own, nor breathing the remnants of his full-breakfast-and-a-packet-of-Lamberts breath stench.
And, yes, I bought a pair of gloves because… uhm… the fella who sold me my helmet discounted them by £40. But the jacket and trousers I will wait on. Until the experience of being on a bike again confirms what I know in my heart: that I want to do this.
Which is one of the deepest fears. Hidden in a vindictive corner of my mind, far away from practical worries about paperwork or showing up on time or losing my nerve on the test is the fear that, somehow, I will find I don’t really like motorcycling. What if I haven’t got the nerve for the speed or the lean? What if I haven’t got the coordination? What if it’s all just too uncomfortable? What if it turns out that I don’t really want to be the person I am presently so certain I want to be?
I guess I’ll find out tomorrow.
(1) Thanks for reading, Sash!